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Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Life doesn't seem to get any better this few day...(say...wonder when will this ever bloody stop..) Oh well... blog about the past 2 days... Can't really stop myself from being bothered by all these that I can't really sleep these feel days and my appetite... It's been really funny...Awhile I don't feel like eating,awhile I find myself wanting to stuff myself for no reason...Haiz...

Yesterday... really blacked out for the day.. Can't really find myself talking like my actual self... You ask me why? I also dunno how to say... (until I say today,all I'm typing in now is about yesterdaY)

Early morning... I was late! Yea... Surprising har? Dun ask me why,ask heaven why I can only slept at 2am the night before lor...Dun worry. Tao Oei's late too... Haiz... So the PE teacher was coming with the class to the gate and so. The whole class saw us la... And what did I turn my back on them,since I sort of am unhappy over certain things that quite a number of them did to me before and over the holidays...

So what did I hear? Yea you know I can be really sneaky doing some eavesdropping at times. So what did I hear? Firstly some of the people saying things like "wah kaisong that nooshyt finally came late to school lei!" and other things about me... I may act as though I do not know about their presence,with me having my back facing them but in fact,I'm holding on...to the tears in my eyes.. A Mr Alan 'requesting' the councillors to let him go...yes and only him... Then I'm like... feeling that they were so biased towards him lor.(It's VERY obvious I tell you...) =(

After that...well... I'm totally speechless... I found myself totally quiet for the day... I dunno why but I always held the temptation of wanting to cry in class. Mrs Chin almost caught me with that... *gulps*

Recess...the same thing again... eating that same plate of meaningless food... all by myself... Not that I'm trying to get sympathy but... do you ever know how does it feel to eat by yourself when everyone else sitting around you has someone to accompany them? Haiz...Wonder how much worse can it get...

After recess... really tired of so many things... It's not just the club,but also some of my personal stuffs and well... my CCA larh...blah blah blah... It's not just only when school reopens,but all this have already been starting since... a month before the holidays... my level of toleration,it's super low now.Yes,I DOUBT MYSELF.

At night... really couldn't have survived tat much if it weren't for a few of what you call real friends who were there for me...Thanks pals... And they include..(i typed in radom lar,since bro nagging -.-)
Kay wee,Eleanor, Wei Juan meimei, Yingwei mei, Si Hao and wei kiat...yea -.- that's all... I know it's not big but...this video(or rather the song..is dedicated just for you).

song name : Best Friends By -Toybox-

THANKS WEI JUAN,YINGWEI,KAY WEE,ELEANOR,SI HAO AND WEI KIAT FOR BEING THERE FOR ME! =)[hope ya enjoy the vids,of coz others can watch la..or else why will I put it here? ]

well...today...cant really talk much,stupid brother la!everytime think the computer is his,I do abit of blogging oso will die liddat...

so it's chimalogy... (abit...)
You see me smiling today,but ever thought of the inside of me?
You see me making crappy lies today,but do you know the meaning behind them?
You think you know how I feel,but what do you know when our start of the 'story' is different?
You see me anwering as nothing much,but do you know how much courage it takes for me to say all this misery I've keeping in me?

Sleep...This feel days I really have been having tons of afternoon sleeps... well... Didn't have much effect actually...

Oh well...try stay happy den... so many support...

my feeling now... very confused... someone...save me!

Another song to describe...well...you know la..
Song name : In the shadows
Download for this video at : http://files.filefront.com/MapleKishu+In+the+Shadowswmv/;9317893;/fileinfo.html

Same thing,want the song or video,just tell me about it.

"I've been having big headaches nowadays."
Dun gimme excuses like a boy should never cry,my life is unlike what you all think.It's beyond your imagination...

Kai Song last roared after this post at 7:57 PM

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