Not having the dinner at Seoul Garden with my classmates. I dunno why but I seem to start to feel like a man having depression.It's lyk,u noe,thoughts lyk"I was all along born to be lonely." and "There is no place for me in this world" keep running through my mind!At the mention of it,I dunno y,I really feel like crying,and feel lyk walking to nowhere. So I am in the community club near Jin Ming's house,playing Maple... Never perk me up even the slightest bit. The cool temperature made my heart and tears freeze and the noise thrashed my mind.I was lyk so... tortured! Another reason for not turnig up was that I know alot of you hate the sight of me, and is unwilling to give me a second chance.Therefore,if only forgetting me could appease you people,it's all worth it. Ya,those who recieved my SMS earlier could have seen this already.Perharps It's too late.However hard I try,the hatred of those who hated me will still only look at the bad side of me.True.It was true. The report book said that I am a helpful boy,but dunno when to extend my helping hand. Also,isit because of my social skills that has caused all this. I am really depressed. Is this to continue for the rest of my life?Isit going to affect my future?Oh man,I'm going crazy.Howeveer,I still see no hope in me.I am a failure.(go ahead,smile for all I care.I had taken all too much)

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